You strive and you believed. You made plans for your own future. You had dreams and you tried to make it happen. And the worse thing that could ever happen is when all those dreams...were put to waste all because someone in authority didn't like something about it. It sounds confusing huh? I'm really depressed, Bluo.
Bluo, you know how much I dream. I've always had dreams and goals. Yes, I admit. I'm a dreamer. I dream almost every day and that's because those are the dreams I want to reach. And you know what's my ultimate dream all these years? I've always dreamt of going abroad to continue my studies. I've always wanted to get out of here...start a new life, be independent...create my own identity in some stranger's country. I was looking for challenges, looking for a whole new beginning and now, all those just came crashing down this morning.
You see Bluo, I've already had this dream since I entered high school. At first, I dreamt of going to UK. But when I figured what sort of course I planned to do, I've limited myself to Australia all because of Monash. They have the course I wanted to pursue. In fact, they were the only university that offered that course. And since I already knew what I want, I took the risk pursuing this course. My whole dreams depended on this small step...this small step could have changed my whole future. I guess it did after all. This morning when I checked, I found out that my course had been removed from the university itself. No one informed me...I had to find it out myself. What happened if I hadn't knew? What would happen then?
Anyways, my point is, when they removed my course from the university, that means I would have to finish mine locally since I'm the last batch. I won't even have a chance to take my honours as I have always dreamt of. How could they do such thing? How could they just steal one's dream just like that? Is this fair?
Bluo, the world's a cruel place..it always is. Now, I just feel lost and uncertain. I'm a person who knows what I want but now I just don't know what to want anymore. There's no goal...no dreams. I guess I'll just have to look deeper. I still have to stay positive no matter how deep down I've fallen, right? I believe everything happens for a reason. I just got to move on and never lose opportunities again. It's no point sulking now. Whoever said life is fair?
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