Should I, Should I Not?

So Bluo, someone offered me this part time job at her office but I'm having some problems deciding whether or not to take it. There's just some things I can't get along with. For instance, I don't really like the idea working under her...I mean no offence, but she's actually my mum. >.< What happens if I do something wrong and then she'll get all mad. In the end, we'll end up arguing. It happened before and that's why I decided not to work for her again. Just didn't want to spoil our mother-daughter relationship.

Well...there's another reason I'm having contemplations working for her. =S I honestly don't like her staff. It's not that I don't like, it's just that I find it hard getting along with them. They're always talking about guys and you know....'adult' stuff. Not my cup of tea.

On the other hand, I SORT OF want to work. I'm bored lingering around at home like a dead zombie. =.=" It's getting REALLY boring over here! I need to earn some money and hopefully it'll be enough to get me an iphone! Wooohooo!!! Ok ok...can't get too excited yet. Hmm...should I work for her? Were those excuses I gave valid enough for me not to work? Maybe I should try getting along with her staff and try doing my best. But I really don't want to end up arguing with my mum! Oh gods! How?! What should I do??? She really needs a replacement fast since one of her staff suddenly decided not to work. How irresponsible. =.=" Anyways, should I or should I not?

Someone please advice! =D

Just Random

Hey ya, Bluo! I'm really tired now. Just got back from the gym. Man, was it hard stepping into the gym! LOL! Well, honestly Bluo, I don't exercise much but I guess I had a change of mind this year. Got to really fight these fats off! Hmm...the gym's not a very bad place actually. I think it's a good place to boost your exercising spirit up. Hahaha...I was pretty pressurized when the people in there started jogging on treadmills like they're freakin marathon runners. =.=" I got to do something or I'll be a laughing stock. Anyways, I would want to go back to the gym again. I feel really fresh after that. Hahaha...

Anyways, I came across this song my brother so happened to share with me. It's 'Science and Faith' by the Script. It's not bad actually. I kinda like their lyrics. It has meaning in it. I love their chorus and I shall dedicate this to my boyfriend. =D

"You won't find faith or hope down the telescope.
You won't find hearts and souls in the stars.
You can breakdown anything into chemicals.
But you can't explain this love of ours.
It's the way we feel.
This is real. " - The Script
*hearts*

It's nice isn't it, Bluo? Haa...Anyways, I'm starting to get bored. Hmm...maybe that's why I've resorted to exercising. You know, I'm hoping that by the end of this year, I'll get to wear a really nice, striking red dress. Hehe...I've been trying to search for a nice one but I still can't find one. How depressing. But here's a few I googled and found it not too bad. =D

This one's not bad. =D

This is better! Woohoo!

Noticed how hot she is? Haa...*daydreams*

Baby Steps to Your Dreams...Broken.

You strive and you believed. You made plans for your own future. You had dreams and you tried to make it happen. And the worse thing that could ever happen is when all those dreams...were put to waste all because someone in authority didn't like something about it. It sounds confusing huh? I'm really depressed, Bluo.

Bluo, you know how much I dream. I've always had dreams and goals. Yes, I admit. I'm a dreamer. I dream almost every day and that's because those are the dreams I want to reach. And you know what's my ultimate dream all these years? I've always dreamt of going abroad to continue my studies. I've always wanted to get out of here...start a new life, be independent...create my own identity in some stranger's country. I was looking for challenges, looking for a whole new beginning and now, all those just came crashing down this morning.

You see Bluo, I've already had this dream since I entered high school. At first, I dreamt of going to UK. But when I figured what sort of course I planned to do, I've limited myself to Australia all because of Monash. They have the course I wanted to pursue. In fact, they were the only university that offered that course. And since I already knew what I want, I took the risk pursuing this course. My whole dreams depended on this small step...this small step could have changed my whole future. I guess it did after all. This morning when I checked, I found out that my course had been removed from the university itself. No one informed me...I had to find it out myself. What happened if I hadn't knew? What would happen then?

Anyways, my point is, when they removed my course from the university, that means I would have to finish mine locally since I'm the last batch. I won't even have a chance to take my honours as I have always dreamt of. How could they do such thing? How could they just steal one's dream just like that? Is this fair?

Bluo, the world's a cruel place..it always is. Now, I just feel lost and uncertain. I'm a person who knows what I want but now I just don't know what to want anymore. There's no goal...no dreams. I guess I'll just have to look deeper. I still have to stay positive no matter how deep down I've fallen, right? I believe everything happens for a reason. I just got to move on and never lose opportunities again. It's no point sulking now. Whoever said life is fair?

Nature

Can you feel that breeze brushing against your cheeks ever so softly? Can you feel the wonderful love of mother nature in the evening as the sun begins to set. The yellow-orangy colour of the sky. It's just such a magnificent sight as I stare out into the window.

Here's a poem I though of randomly. =D

Nature
Carissa L.

Whispers of nature at your ears
The subtle touch of wind fills your heart
Listen to the song of everlasting
What do you hear?

Close your eyes
Learn to watch the stars in the dark
Learn to touch the moving air with emotions
Dance with all that you feel

As you sit there under the rain
Listen to the pitter patter
Can you hear their soft words of nature?
Can you feel their cold, calming touch on your face?

Smell nature as sweet honey
Watch nature as a beauty
Touch nature as a fragile baby
Love nature for their craving love

Day 3 in Vietnam

Right now, it's 6 pm over here in Vietnam. I'm back early to the hotel today. Yay! Thank god it's the last day. I'm seriously dead tired and what with my sudden fever and cough. How depressing...couldn't even go shopping with my usual shopping spirit.

Okay. Enough of the babbling. Bluo, I know you're no human but I wonder if you've gone into any small, puny tunnels before. Yea. We went to the 'Cu Chi Tunnels' today. It's supposedly made by the Vietnamese soldiers during the war with the Americans...if I'm not mistaken. LOL! My dad actually crawled into one of the tunnels dug underground. My mum and I started to freak out after a few minutes because it took him some time to come out through the other hole. =.=" He said it was really dark and small. I guess he practically crawled in there since his hair and t-shirt were decorated with dirt and leaves. Hahaha...

That one was a smaller tunnel. The one all tourists are allowed to crawl in isn't an original tunnel. It was bigger just so it could fit all tourists sizes. I wanted so much to go in but the minute i saw the actual tunnel size, I chickened out. =.=" Don't you dare laugh! I have a phobia of small areas okay. It's not funny when you begin to find it hard to breathe. In conclusion, I didn't get to crawl in. It's depressing. *sobs*

Anyways, it was a half day trip. We went back and my mum wanted to go shopping again. How typical of a woman. But I'm no different too. LOL! I'm sick and still...I tagged along since I wanted to get a freaking hat so badly and possibly a red dress since Vietnam sells loads of red dresses. Fyi, they have nice red dresses. Sadly, I couldn't even last an hour and got all worn out. I probably looked like a zombie trying to stand still. Oh! Remember I mentioned how crazy the people are on the road? Yea...it's even worse when you're walking on the road and trying to cross to the other side. There's no traffic light and cars, vans and whatever vehicle out there are practically driving in all direction. The motorbikes are the worst since they cover up almost the whole population of the other vehicles!

Well, that's all for now. I'm going back tomorrow! Woohoo!! Home sweet home, babeh!

Day 2 in Vietnam

Wassup Bluo! It's 11.30 pm over here in Vietnam and I'm dead tired. I just got to blog this out before I head to the bed.

So...we were suppose to go to the 'Mekong Delta' today. Had to meet up at the tour office at like 7 am! I was forced to wake up at 5.30 am. T.T My slumber sleep....gone...And the worst thing was that the bus was suppose to reach at 7.45 am but it came an hour late! The place was really crowded and polluted. Someone should have warned me to bring a freakin mask. =.="

Our tour guide was rather funny though. He made some jokes just to make us feel more welcomed I guess. Everyone in the bus were sort of dead until the tour guide spoke. LOL! Lets see if I can remember any of his jokes. Oh oh! Here's one:

Guide: Do you know what they say about an old man who marries a young girl?

Tourists: *wonders*

Guide: An old bull which eats the green grass!

Funny? No?? I know...it's kinda lame when I say it. =.=" But seriously, he was funny. You need to see his expression when he said it...and not to forget his vietnamese accent. It's hilarious.

Okay..enough of that. So during the whole trip there, we visited the erm...village? We saw how they made rice crackers, coconut candy and honey. Oh and there were pythons over there! I had it around my neck. =D What a surprise huh? LOL! Want to know how it feels like having a python around your neck? Hmm...I don't really know how to express because I NEVER touched it, bongo! hahaha...I wouldn't even dare go an inch near that thing. =.= It's not poisonous though. The people there would kill it for their skin which is used to make purse and belts. Whereas, their fats are used to erm...I can't remember. I drank honey tea (green tea + honey + lime). Really awesome! I think I'll go home and try that out. =D What else? Hmm...nothing much otherwise. Just a huge river throughout.

Ok mum's rushing me now. We're all fighting over my dad's laptop. Hahaha...Ok Ok. Speed up time! After that trip, we took another 3 hours back to the city. Had dinner at this awesome diner, 'Liberty'. Nice food especially the soft-shelled crab. My mum couldn't help it, so she made us go to the night market with her. That's all for now then.

It's goodnight for now. Goodnight Bluo!

PS: For my boyfriend, hugs hugs x infinity. =D

Day 1 in Vietnam

Heyya Bluo! I'm in Vietnam currently and its such a culture shock for me. I'm living in the city area so it's REALLY crowded! And you cannot believe the majority of motorcycle they have here. Seriously, the amount of motorcycle here exceeds those of cars or vans. And the way they drive...OMG! I would have probably peed in my pants driving on that road (just to show how scary it is). ^_^ But really..no joke. You can literally hear honks everywhere and the motorcyclist wouldn't even bother. It would have taken me guts riding on one in Vietnam...but then again, I've never rode on a motorbike. hahaha...

At least the hotel rooms are alright. Get to have a goodnight rest then. =D Oh oh! So far, the food here isn't bad at all. In fact, it's really nice especially this place called Pho 2000 or something like that.

Oh well, just got to get used to it. Internet connection here is limited. My boyfriend borrowed me his handphone just so we could chat using wifi. Unfortunately, there ain't no wifi here in this hotel! The only internet connection I'm using is the one with cable and on my dad's comp. Hahaha...I really miss home...and I really miss YOU! You know who you are. Hope you're reading this. =D I can't really message him due to the cost and my credit fall all the way to RM 19. T.T Why?!! Sigh...I'm always wondering what's he doing over there. Probably enjoying yourself and missing me once in a while. Hehe...Remember, I always receive your message and I'll read it which really makes me happy. But if I don't reply, that's not because I don't want to..I really want to but I can't. Limited credit. =( And I can't go on facebook! I don't know why but my dad said they probably banned facebook over here in Vietnam. So yea...That's all about my first day in Vietnam. I'll upload pictures when I can. =D

PS: Really missing you loads!! <3>